DINK #203 Look Ma, I Made It!

Posted on : 09-10-2010 | By : Lynn | In : Uncategorized

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I’m embarrassed to admit to you that for most of my life I have desperately desired two things (besides love and peace of course): recognition and acknowledgment. For a good portion of my life I have gone after these two things as bass ackwards as you could go.  I got recognition all right, but not the kind that I really wanted in the depths of my heart.

Several years ago when I first started to entertain the idea of returning to college because, even though I had an Associates Degree and had 175 hours of Life Coach training, the big gaps in my knowledge, education and awareness of what was going on in and around the world was starting to wear thin with me.  There’s just so much hem hawing around that you can do when you surround yourself with very bright people (then can spot that Navaho thread right off!).  Anyway, during this time of looking into returning I began collecting my various diplomas and certifications.  I actually received a nice piece of recognition and acknowledgment from the Dean of Students (formerly the Guidance Counselor for the Girls) at the boarding school I went to when she sent me my high school grades with a note that said something to the affect that my grades didn’t reflect the fact that I had placed in the top 10% in the nation in IQ. Now I don’t know how the heck she had that information, but I didn’t want to dig too deep in case I could prove her wrong!  I sat on those laurels for a few years and then finally enrolled at Texas State University in 2009.

Imagine my surprise when I got a letter from the Golden Key International Honor Society recently in recognition of my outstanding academic achievement and my placement in the top 15% of my class. In my mind, this kind of award should go to students like my friend Melissa M. who has consistently earned A’s holding at least 17 hours a semester, but hey, I’ll take it even though I’m only taking two classes a semester.  The Honors Program at Texas State University is one of the best-kept secrets going on this campus.  The classes that are offered to the Honors students are fantastic, current, interesting and fun and taught by the cream of the crop professors. Classes are limited to 17 students max so there is great opportunity for one-on-one time with the teachers and interacting with your classmates.  For any student who is working their tail end off and getting good grades, I highly recommend you check into the Honors’ Program—you’ll be really glad that you did.

I’m grateful to my husband for carrying the weight of being the breadwinner so that I could return to school and heal this huge gaping wound from my unfinished past. Plus, just being able to connect the dots between what I knew, what I thought I knew and what I definitely didn’t know is so great. Let’s face it, it’s hard enough going through a huge hormonal fluctuation that make you do bizarre things like putting an opened container of cottage cheese in the pantry instead of the fridge without adding to that a huge lack of education.

Our Universal Human Rights’ Professor told us recently about an article by Michael Kinsley in the Atlantic http://tinyurl.com/256dhv4 which reported that “our generation” (hers and mine since we’re both Baby Boomers) have been self-absorbed, self-indulgent and all too often just plain selfish and need to apologize to the generations that came after us for the mess we have made.  Well, yes, I can see this perspective and my hope is that there are still many Baby Boomers who have enough fire in their belly to enable them to pull some pretty incredible rabbits out of their hats at this 11th hour.  While attending school to complete my degree I’ve been diving into blogging to help and encourage people, I’ve been interviewing all kinds of people who are doing great things out there to help out the world on Blog Talk Radio and I’m in the process of helping a team of incredible people put the finishing touches on a talk show that will be filmed at the end of this month to then go into some savvy producers’ hands to take it into the next dimension so I know that I want to help heal and ignite and I’m trying a variety of ways to make that happen right now before I even earn a degree.

Today I want recognition and acknowledgment for and about what is possible. I want recognition and acknowledgment for what you see and hear that I am trying to do to help and your two cents on how we can make that happen together.  It is more important to me today to pay attention to legacy building and how our efforts can positively impact the generations who come after us than just what is in it for plain ole me!

So, here it is again that lesson about fighting for what we think we want so long and so hard and then at some point in our quest, letting go and letting the divine and accidentally morphing into something that we never considered for ourselves so that that “thing” that when we stumble upon that “thing” that we thought we wanted all this time we realize that some facet of it was in ourselves all the time and all we needed was to shine the light upon it.

May you recognize your top 15% specialness today and activate it for tomorrow.

DINK #188 Another Big Ole Slice Of Humble Pie Please!!

Posted on : 24-09-2010 | By : Lynn | In : Uncategorized

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Yes, there is nothing quite like going back to school and finishing up what I decided was not quite worthy of my attention a few decades ago.  I know that really it’s such a great privilege and I’m very grateful for the opportunity and love learning something new every week…. still though…. I am collecting the calories from the big ole humble pie that I get to keep taking slices of every week.

Take today for instance.  I have the opportunity to work a contract gig AND learn from the master about PR and Writing (thank you NH) and so this morning I had to get up early enough so that I could feed the cats, get ready, eat breakfast and talk with four people (15 minutes each) who I sponsor and then be in San Marcos (about 42 miles from my casa) by 9:00am.  I pretty much looked like a bag lady leaving my house this morning with my back pack (with laptop and books), my architecture project that was due today plus all the supplies I will need over the semester and my lunch packed up and ready to go.  For some reason I always feel like a Carol Burnett character when I begin tossing this bag over that shoulder and another bag over the other one and then trying to figure out how to carry an awkward sized poster board in a trash bag that could break at any minute.  I did remember all my clothes and toiletries that I needed for after my mid-morning walk and was grateful that my hair is long enough now to fold up into a French bun and call it good.

The piece of humble pie today (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sdXjm8pZMws) came when I had to make the fateful decision to park in the commuters’ parking lot away from the University instead of the parking lot that I prefer to go to which is nestled up close to the campus. Turns out that is also every other student’s favorite parking lot and most of them have good parking karma too so it’s not out of the question to sit there for 45 minutes watching and following innocent victims to their cars only to discover that they are using the parking lot to cut through to their apartment or class and not to return to their car.

I had to call the Parking Office (again) and this time got a really helpful gal (Heather) who was very patient explaining to me where to park so that I could take the Bobcat Shuttle from the lot to the campus. I’ve always been scared to do that because it would be just my luck to miss one very important part of instructions/directions only to discover that I had ended up somehow on an express bus bound for the panhandle (not that there’s anything the matter with that Tricia!).  I wish they handed out gold pins that we could affix to our backpack for those of us who take the Bobcat Shuttle challenge!  Even more humbling was the getting off the bus with everything that I was trying to carry from Point A to Point B.  That and when I get nervous, well, let’s just say I’m not a fun person to sit within 10 feet of for any length of time.  I think I accidentally hit a couple of students while exiting the bus and managed to figure out how to strap on my backpack, hang my lunch cooler, hold my poster board assignment and navigate the hills and stairs to finally land in the classroom.

As simple and silly as this may all sound to you, trust me, this would have been a deal breaker not so long ago in the world of Lynn.  I just would not have been able to stand not knowing so many things and taking my best shot based on the information I had and following through with action.  That and walking through campus like a one-woman show (lunch? here you go! Need some information? Let me Google that for you.  Architecture project? No problem, I can show you some photos that I took and mounted showing examples of how color was used to accentuate for this commercial structure!)!  Luckily, the hot sweats didn’t start up until I’d reached my final destination…. thank you God for cooler weather!

I guess if I had to choose between the two, I’d prefer a big ole slice of Humble Pie to eating Crow. But that’s just me, how about you?