Posted on : 29-08-2011 | By : Lynn | In : Heart Talks
Ever since January of this year, I’ve been speaking with a really good mentor/Coach/friend of mine Mon-Thur. Before we began this coaching process (prompted from my new “Cut-to-the Chase” Coaching program) we were part of a group of four Coaches who met once a week every month every year for the past eleven years. Suffice it to say, we know each other pretty darn well and have been there for each other through all kinds of ups and downs in life.
Fortunately for me, my friend is willing to tempt my reaction to fear (defensiveness, abruptness, aloofness) to speak of the elephant in the middle of the room so that I can make informed choices rather than skirt around the elephant avoiding potential conflict as well as success. As it also turns out, both my friend and I share a lot of traits to the point that I know if I’m seeing something in her that I want to jump in and make suggestions about that it’s probably something in me that I don’t want to look at. In other words, “if you spot it, you’ve got it”.
In my case, I think there’s probably a whole herd of elephants in the middle of the room and any recognition of in the smallest of them even in the most benign manner will start a stampede! This herd represents all kinds of FEAR (false evidence appearing real) for me. And all of that fear is tied like a spider web to money. One of the bugs caught in my money web is the fear of rejection. I will go to the farthest corners of the Earth to be completely isolated by myself rather than invite the possibility of rejection. Especially if that rejection is about the work or service I offer. Of course you realize that this kind of reaction to the fear of rejection has also tampered with some very good experiences of acceptance and possibly even celebration. I think it’s probably another facet of a control issue as well. All this fear can also quickly become resentment after awhile if I steep in it long enough.
The ultimate resentment is of myself for severely limiting myself from what is possible.
It occurred to me today as my mentor and I embarked on the tango up to my fear of money and rejection and then fast on those heels, resentment that I could look at the fear differently this time. I could look at it as an indicator to respond in an entirely different way (some know this as being counter intuitive) to the way that I “usually” would respond and see what happens. What was it Einstein said? “Any intelligent fool can make things bigger, more complex, and more violent. It takes a touch of genius — and a lot of courage — to move in the opposite direction.” I don’t know about a touch of genius in my case, but I think I can garner up a lot of courage to move in the opposite direction.
In what way are you willing to look at your fear differently?
Posted on : 15-02-2011 | By : Lynn | In : Communication
Remember Bill Withers’ song, “Ain’t no sunshine when she’s gone“? When I was a little kid, the very ending drove me crazy….okay! okay! we know that you know that we know that you know that there definitely ain’t no sunshine when she’s gone!! Well fast forward several decades and that seemingly redundant ending has a whole new meaning for me (still reminds me of my brother and I trying to sing the ending in one long breath so that we could mimic Bill but almost passing out in the process…but I digress!)
We’re starting to explore Epistemology in Philosophy Class, which is the “nature of knowledge’. Three basic questions of Epistemology are: What is knowledge? What can I know? and How do I know it? You’re probably wondering what this can possibly have to do with you, but understanding what we know and what we don’t know much less what we don’t even know that we don’t know….are some of the most important questions we can ask ourselves in regards to how we relate to the world around us.
One of my long-time coaching friends shared with me recently how much she appreciated the gift I have to just “know” what to say, when to say it and when not to say anything. Believe me, this has been a long time coming for me—I used to be so obnoxious with all my ‘knowing” and would “know” all over anyone who would allow me the room. Today, I’ve learned that although I do know quite a lot (in spite of my sieve-like brain) a.) there is quite a lot I don’t know and b.) when it comes to really “being there” for another person–it really doesn’t matter what you know. What is more important is your knowing how to use what you know in a way that can help the other person to recognize what they know.
Some of my favorite teachers in life (both the academic as well as the non-academic variety) have been those people who seem to really know who I am by the way that they ask me questions about what I know, think, believe, need and/or want. Some in particular, have had a very elegant way of responding to who I was in a very understated manner which allowed me to save face and feel almost brilliant at the same time, without taking any credit for it. Sometimes days, weeks, months even years later I would replay the scenario in my head only to be able to see the scaffolding behind the scenes of their actions with me and appreciate them even more for allowing me the room to grow and explore.
Such a simple thing really, to ask another person what they need, or what they are thinking or even to clarify what they have said…even if we know in our gut of guts all of the answers and beyond to any of the questions we are asking. The knowing is about going deeper into the understanding of what we know so that we can go deeper in order to help another person in their knowing.
That’s a whole lot of special vitamin K for your brain but I believe understanding about our knowing can then lead us into further explorations of empathy….but then that’s a whole other blog for us…know what I mean?