Posted on : 20-01-2012 | By : Lynn | In : Mind Fodder
Tags: Living in the present
Enough of this “if I only knew then what I knew now….” all I know for sure is that I have right now this minute to act on and be in. Well, and of course when that physics thing happens where I can be thinking two thoughts about the future, three about the past and one in the present simultaneously. What I want to celebrate with you today is to list some of the things that I do now, that I didn’t do “back when”.
1.) I’ve been known to hang out in my pajamas well past noon but getting a whole lot of things done working at my desk right beside my husband who seems to love me in spite of no make-up or perfume!
2.) Return to college with fellow classmates many years younger than me. Couldn’t face returning when I was 5-10 years older then most other students, but sure can do it now. Acceptance or denial? Whichever it is, it’s working!
3.) Care about what is going on in my friends’ lives but in an interdependent give-them-a-hug kind of way and not the icky obsequious co-dependent way that I used to fall into way back when.
4.) Discover new aspects of my husband that I can enjoy, laugh about, respect every day, week, month and year. This is a bloody miracle considering in my youth I was addicted to that aspect of relationships known as limerence which meant the very second the blush was off the rose, I was outta there!
5.) Fold my underwear and socks. True story. I used to keep a really, almost fastidiously, clean home except for my dresser drawers. It was just too much for me to fold my underthings and so I would stuff them into a drawer which meant that anytime I wanted a new pair of whatever, I had to fight with the drawer and everything in them. Today I fold everything up neat and in it’s place so that it is so easy to open the drawer and pull what I need out. It’s a shame though that only I get to see this great accomplishment (and, well, I guess now you know it too!).
6.) I weigh and measure all my food when I eat at home (three squares a day) and eyeball portions when I go out. Don’t eat in-between meals, don’t eat flour and sugar and don’t starve. You can’t imagine how crazy I used to be about food. Oy vey. For instance, I remember one time when I was plowing through a box of Wheat Thins, for some reason I decided to look at what they called a portion size and nearly choked when I read “16 crackers” . Have you ever seen how small Wheat Thins are? Why, 16 crackers was just the kindling for the fire?!! So glad I don’t have to eat that way ever again, one day at a time.
7.) I try to vary my drive when I leave for home to get out of the rut of doing the same thing. Gives me a different perspective, helps me to stay focused and not in a day dreaming state while driving. I don’t know if it’s a good thing or something that I should feel guilty about, but I know all kinds of baristas at various Starbucks all over Austin.
8.) I dance like crazy when a song comes on that I love, no matter who is around. I’ve always danced a lot, but I was very, very careful to make sure that not too many people spotted me doing so. Now, eh, why not?!
9.) Instead of feeling embarrassed when I am sometimes spastic in speaking and jumble words or flub sentences or what-have-you, I’ve worked in several sounds and facial expressions to mark it right in the moment which takes the attention away from it and definitely lightens the experience for any witnesses.
10.) I look for ways to make the people around me happy, most of the time. I mean, hey, I’m human and so sometimes the scarfy side of me jumps out but for the most part I do my best to find ways to make others happy. Cuz then we can laugh together and I really enjoy laughing.
How about you? What do you do now that you didn’t do then?