We went to see the opening night movie, “Moneyball” starring Brad Pitt, Philip Seymour Hoffman, Jonah Hill, Robin Wright and a slew of great actors.  Our household gives it a four thumbs up for sure.  It is based on a true story about  Oakland A’s general manager Billy Beane’s successful attempt to put together a baseball club on a budget by employing computer-generated analysis to draft his players.

I’m a sucker for a good story about baseball and this one was no exception.  I understood exactly why Billy could not show up at the live baseball games (superstitious about being bad luck for the team) and why when his team was playing he would turn on the television but turn the sound off.  It’s just too much too bear the thought of losing.  By the way, Brad Pitt proved he is not just another pretty face anymore–he’s a really good actor.  Spit into the cup perfectly!   But I digress, the reason I’m blogging about this movie is because Billy Beane’s story felt so familiar to me. You know—wondering if you made the right decision even when your gut tells you that you probably didn’t and everyone around you is telling you that you did.

Spoiler alert if you don’t know Billy’s story………………………

It’s about knowing that you made the right decision even when everyone tells you (or thinks) that it was wrong and turning down a whole bundle of money to boot!  I love that Billy had the courage to follow his dream or at least what he believed is/was his dream (to have the A’s win the World Series).  We come into this world alone and we go out of this world alone and in-between we’re sitting within ourselves alone a lot of the time so it’s a good thing when we can believe in ourselves enough to go for the dream no matter what.  To stand by what we value and what we believe in.  To not sell our souls to the highest bidder because that’s what “everyone else” thinks we should do. See?!?!  There I go off on a romantic tangent about baseball and I’m the girl who was terrified to even play softball because of what it could (and did) do to my fingers and face when I couldn’t catch the ball right!

It’s because  the story of baseball is one that we can all climb into some part and relate to in our own lives.

Tonight, I’m going to really be thinking about the message that the highest point of my brain put a flag out in recognition of tonight.  That winning is not all about the money and yet it’s also about taking the money that you’ve earned. The thing is that bar inside of us that tells us “we’ve earned” something is just that…a bar inside of us. That means that no matter how much someone may tell us that we’ve earned something, unless we feel that bar inside of us—we’re probably going to walk around with a nameless weight inside of us because we don’t feel that we’ve earned the money, attention, recognition, etc.

What is your ultimate aha in life right now?  How do you know that you’ve reached an inner goal?